Dr Molly Black

Quick Sales Post - Please Help!?!

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 13:13:49 GMT

My hospital bills are starting to really pile up so I've taken time when I've had the strength to put together a better looking collection of my clothes I have for sale.

If you buy something today (Tuesday, October 27) you will get it before Halloween - Shipping costs you cover will be close to what I pay to ship things. No fees for purchases made today (as in to cover Paypal fees). I can not vouch for any purchases made on Wednesday or later due to the closeness of the date though if you're willing to pay for next day delivery, I will definitely send it out same day so you can get it in time. Normally I do USPS Priority, but I'm going to use FedEx if it's cheaper since it comes with tracking and insurance.

Please note that I've posted in the descriptions if there's dirt or a tear or some such defect on any items so no refunds. Especially since it's so close to Halloween and I don't want to encourage people to purchase a corset gown only to return it after wearing it for an event or party or even just a regular photo shoot.

Go here to see lots of photos and descriptions of the clothes I have for sale. There's corsets, corset gowns, Tripp, Lip Service, and older more rare clothes from the SF/London days of my life ranging between 1993-1999.

I am selling everything I have due to the combination punch of nearly dying this past June due to Addison's Disease, followed by nine nights in the hospital, followed by weight gain due to steroids (no more fitting in my clothes for modeling), followed by an influx of bills from the hospital. So please please help by finding things I have you want. Combination purchases can get you discounts on not only shipping, but also on the items (more than three items to ask for a discount, please).

There will be more clothes posted over the next 24 hours, but none of them as exciting as the ones I have up now. More vintage goth clothing such as skirts, dresses, and such.

Just to put it in perspective, my medical bills are well over $10k for a nine night stay in the local hospital and all the tests etc. Plus I need to buy a roller/walker and can't afford one so the first thing I'm buying as soon as I sell enough clothes is one of those to help me get around. My cane isn't working since I need to balance my weight oddly with it. I've been approved for Paratransit (the local transportation taxi-type service for people with disabilities bad enough to keep them from regularly using local regular transportation) and that costs money too, every time I go to the doctor which is at least three times a week currently. So yeah, my disability has me having to sell everything I can. Please feel free to pass this along. And I can definitely scan images of my bills and the discharge papers from the hospital this past June if anybody doubts the veracity of my situation.

Halloween, Fall & Winter Solstice: Time to buy costumes and clubwear!

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 00:42:15 GMT

To see many more photos of each item just go to here to see lots more As far as the prices are concerned I am flexible with some, but not with others. The Lip Service or latex for instance...there will be more added to this every other day so keep an eye out for them!

The prices do NOT include shipping. Shipping will be done based on weight and package size. FedEx Ground for anything over 5 pounds (aka for gowns) and USPS Priority Flat Rate Box for everything else. Paypal payment preferred - especially need verified addresses for shipping and insurance purposes. In order for you to look up shipping costs you can use my shipping zip code of 94611.

Though there is only one photo of each item here, if you follow the link at top you will see many, many more photos of the items, including close ups of any flaws. Questions answered quite happily.

My corsets and corset gowns can be found in the corset community and my previous entry with another fourteen (14) pieces of clothing ranging from rubber sets to vintage pieces here at http://mollyblack.livejournal.com/302495.html.

Black Velvet Leotard with Kitty Tail with faux fur accents and trim(S) $20-

Vintage Sailor Style Mini-dress for regular wear or Cosplay Size (M) $25

Next Collection sex-neutral top with black fabric pattern down front and buttons all the way up the back. Truly unique. Size (10) $25

Gorgeous partially sheer top by Rampage - green beads down the front of the textured shirt and sleeves that go forever Size (L) $45

Steel boned very firm waist cincher/corset by Shame with eight (8) attached stocking clips. Needs new lacing for the back, but that can be any color you choose to pick for it. Never worn out and kept in a non-smoking house Size (M) $35

Very rare green patterned dress from a now defunct clothing store from the Lower Haight in SF (Bulletproof I believe was the name) in 1995. Worn out three times and the rest of the time kept in excellent condition in a non-smoking home Size (M) $50

Longer skirt in a free size with elastic waist, vintage, with white thread accents and sequins around the bottom $15

Very rare holographic high heeled shoes from England/UK made by Underground Shoes Size (6) in UK but I wear an 8.5 and they fit me a little tightly, but bearable. $50

Vintage Frederick's of Hollywood trousers, they're a pair of loose black trousers covered with a separate layer of sheer with blue silver reflective material floating on top with slits down the sides Size (M) $15

Pair of Express sample trousers that are black with sheer lace up both legs on the sides for a very lovely effect Size (M) $25

Relevent Quote from Dame Agatha Christie Mallowan

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 22:49:23 GMT

"It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridiculous, that you realize just how much you love them! Anyone can admire somebody for being handsome or amusing or charming, but that bubble is soon pricked when a trace of ridicule comes in. I should give as my advice to any girl about to get married: 'Well now, just imagine he had a terrible cold in his head, speaking through his nose all full of b's and d's, sneezing, eyes watering. What would you feel about him?' It's a good test, really. What one needs to feel for a husband, I think, is the love that is tenderness, that comprises affection, that will take colds in the head and little mannerisms all in its stride. Passion one can take for granted.

But marriage means more than a lover -- I take an old-fashioned view that respect is necessary. Respect -- which is not to be confused with admiration. To feel admiration for a man all through one's married life would, I think, be excessively tedious. You would get, as it were, a mental crick in the neck. But respect is a thing that you don't have to think about, that you know thankfully is there. As the old Irish woman said of her husband, 'Himself is a good head to me.' That, I think, is what a woman needs. She wants to feel that in her mate there is integrity, that she can depend on him and respect his judgment, and that when there is a difficult decision to be made it can safely lie in his hands.

Dame Agatha Christie Mallowan
"Agatha Christie: An Autobiography"
©1950-1977

I found this such a good quote I typed the whole thing finger by finger to make certain of sharing it. There is a lot more, but I recommend going out and buying her autobiography for yourself -- whether you write or just enjoy well-written books. She definitely rates near the top. And unlike some I've read it really does let you see only peeks here and there. Her Victorian nature and upbringing definitely show themselves. In a very good way.

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Fri, 04 Sep 2009 17:03:22 GMT

13:45 Not having a good day. Lack of sleep. Hot & humid. Leg hurts on top of extra pain. Have to decide what to do b/c right now I don't know. #
13:47 Just nearly burped up (sorry if this is too gross) vomit. My tummy hates me currently. Every part of me hates me currently. Need real help. #
14:41 @bridgetvoid : Worry about a bad reaction is definitely something I can see causing them to hold off. My body reacts so oddly after all... #
16:02 I'm killing myself today the way most people do it by smoking or drinking...in my manic phases that keep me up all night doing things & OW. #
16:05 Made fresh pasta salad, sharpened knives, put away dead electronics & a dozen adapters futilely trying to find THE one, walked/fed dogs, etc #
17:01 @slauriat : Wow. Do they have "Marnie" too? When does it start? Do they have a website to link to? I'm excited to see his work in a theatre. #
17:02 Oh, washed Femme Pois & have to wash Zweite Ein once the sweat eases. Have way too much to do in order to have a non-messy home. What next? #
17:42 bit.ly/FCJVI - a really good recommendation from @kumimonster. I plan to save up so I can buy it for @slauriat. He loves Jazz a lot. #
18:58 Laying in bed with Femme Pois nearby & the heat & humidity are so bad that I'm pouring sweat just resting. So ready for it to rain, please? #
19:05
@modelnicotine : You can feel free to pick an extra one of those up & ship it out to me if you get a chance. Sounds perfectly delicious! YUM #
19:23 bit.ly/jizu3 - @slauriat told me about this & I'm thrilled. Who wants to join us watching "Marnie" on the big screen for a night out? #
02:47 bit.ly/4oKeEx - This is a really good sale on some inexpensive speakers for your computer. If I had the funds I would purchase them. #
02:50 Had a nice evening w/@slauriat; we had dinner I made & he took care of the walking of the dogs. Trying to figure out what we need to do. :-( #

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Thu, 03 Sep 2009 17:02:36 GMT

17:54 bit.ly/GuxAu : This is the monitor I want. It looks like it has everything I need. I'd trade one of my corsets for it immediately! #
18:00 Between humidity & trigger point pain I'm in bed staying away from computer & iPod Touch. Visitors (especially w/Popsicles) welcome. *HUG* #
20:43 I'm so lucky! On top of the extra damage to me from the car accident I now have started to come down with a flu I caught from my caretaker. #
21:59 @languid : I know, could I have a few days where my body can not have stresses hitting it? *Sigh* Symptoms = not contagious so please visit. #
21:59 @melantha71 : Virtual hot toddies more than welcome! Now you just need to get your FMS under control so you can come visit me here in SF. #
22:00 @slauriat : Guessing you made yourself something very nice to eat & I agree that you should go out for a nice walk. Wish you were here... #
22:31 @bridgetvoid : Don't blame me - blame my caretaker. She takes terrible care of herself & hangs out w/people that have lowered immunities. #
23:21 @slauriat : That sounds absolutely delicious. Glad that you had that to finish off. If you can't find sweet&sour sauce, we can do broccoli! #
23:27 bit.ly/3FTIKa - This tea set makes a really great gift and I can not recommend it enough. I don't need one - I have one & love it! #
23:34 @bunneh : I feel stupidly sad as well. I don't suppose you want to marry an American citizen with two dogs to come live with you & play? #
23:36 @slauriat : Because that's totally disgusting sounding. Maybe the heat started to go to your head & now you're doomed to desiring bad taste? #
03:34 Somebody wrote to me from a site my "photographer friends" started called Model Insider & they want to pay me to model & share print sales. #
03:34 Not a lot of money, but any bit helps & he has a decent portfolio & works in Oakland out of a studio. He has some good ideas too. So yay! #
03:39 @bridgetvoid : If my GP agrees I need a flu shot I will definitely get one. Erica says I just have a bad cold, b/c I don't have a fever. Ha! #
03:40 My weirdness when it comes to medical issues continues wrttf that I almost never get a temp., no matter how sick I get. I get fevers rarely. #
03:48 bit.ly/1RaCu - Okay, so here's "Watchmen" on Blu-ray on sale. I haven't seen yet but I want to & I'll want to own it eventually. #
03:51 bit.ly/b20jG - And here's another one on sale that I know before seeing that I want: Coraline Blu-ray w/3-D glasses. Drool dripping. #
03:59 Wow. bit.ly/IS5Iy This is just insanely geeky which means that it grabbed me lustily. Do you think Randy's right? bit.ly/DwRMj #
06:02 @choochoobear : I don't think that I've ever stopped having sleepovers & I'm 40. I think it honestly depends on your home life. 12-13 or so? #
08:55 I could not sleep again last night. So I sit here bleary eyed, contemplating paths to take or not to take. I think I have a lot to organize. #
10:57 The girl who purchased the "Stardust" costume from me just sent photos & I want to cry. It fits her perfectly & she looks great in it. *SOB* #
10:59 Not due to jealousy. Due to the fact that I loved that dress & wanted a copy of it made for me in my size & it will never happen now. #
11:00 I just walked the dogs around two short blocks & my leg that has the marks still from the car accident is hurting even more now as well. #

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Tue, 01 Sep 2009 17:02:35 GMT

12:38 @petapixel bit.ly/pplbby - I had a lizard named Whiplash that I took to a pet contest that I won for the most bizarre pet. Loved him! #
21:38 @languid : At least you know when you're having a bad day emotionally & can warn your friends ahead of time. Do you know what your week has? #
21:41 @slauriat : I meant to ask you but doctor talk usurped mind. That's fantastic; I'm really happy about that. How long until you get it back? #
21:46 @languid : Well since you got me addicted to those dark chocolate truffles (the ones rolled in chocolate powder) 'tis only fair you have it. #
21:51 Today I added over ten more items to my sales w/photos so I'm trying to catch up on my missing sleep. I'll have over 50 items for sale soon! #
22:10 Nausea has me wrapped tightly in it's grasp. Trying to take care of myself, sell things, clear out my closet, & care for the dogs w/help. :( #
22:14 Now the nausea has become so bad I am literally shaking from it. Erica's trying to help, but when it gets this bad all I can do is hope. #
22:38 @slauriat : That's even better. You deserve to have some good luck wrt $ & customer service. I'm pleased my fixed 360's already headed back. #
22:39 @slauriat : Between that & getting either a new fixed or upgraded Epson printer this week has started out decently for repairs to our goods. #
23:30 Femme Pois (aka my doggie Purrbarella) has fallen asleep curled up near enough that her curled up body touches mine. Bath time for me now. #
23:58 @fightingwords : I'm guessing (C) Both at the same time. Heaven knows they do that to me whenever given half a chance. Have a super *HUG* k? #
00:37 RT @laughingsquid: Canon has just announced their new 7D DSLR camera bit.ly/rPgmX [Super sexy to me, which gives me hope I can care.] #

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Mon, 31 Aug 2009 17:02:35 GMT

15:06 Having slept a LOT due to exhaustion & missing the show last night (I gave my ticket to @languid) can anybody give me a ride shopping today? #
15:17 Still exhausted but need things from a drugstore, Safeway, & Trader Joe's. Need quarter roll for laundry. Hungry for Cocoa Rice Crispies. #
15:20 Never mind: It looks like my beloved @slauriat will run errands for us both today so I can stay resting & recovering. Esp due to last night. #
19:43 Anybody have some free time, a vehicle & a desire for my company? Must go to a Super Target; I have a dress to exchange & sour cream to buy. #
22:56 @languid : I'm really glad you got a chance to use my ticket & I'm very sad I couldn't go. As it stands I'm still very sick & worn out. :-( #
22:59 Worn out & in tons of pain but I have clean laundry which always makes a day/night a little better. Femme Pois sleeps happily next to me. #
23:05 twitpic.com/fxuwy - Femme Pois passed out next to me in bed. #
23:09 RT @petapixel: Hack - Using your DVD player lens as a super-macro lens for your cell phone camera: bit.ly/a1jWp [Anybody can do it!] #
23:38 Watching the extended version of "Advent Children" (dubbed) & actually enjoying it more than expected. I'm starting to fade due to stress. #
23:49 @modelnicotine : All I can think of in response to this is a) Monty Python & the Holy Grail & b) the German boyfriend during his US visit. #
02:03 Frustrated w/Circuit City's insurance replacement company. First they didn't pick up after 75 minutes on hold. Then they dropped my call. #
02:29 Well, Assurant just picked the ball up & after this call I now have a new printer that's either a new R1800 or an =/greater value model due. #
02:32 Now to get the TV fixed next. Between these two & @slauriat's new logic board coming, we definitely make use of our extended warranties. :-) #
02:46 bit.ly/ppTLq : I can't recommend these enough. I LOVE mine & would buy another one or two if I could for eating yummy fresh plants. #
03:16 If you know anybody in the Bay Area who may like a really gorgeous ceiling fan that we special ordered, point 'em here: bit.ly/eS03D #
06:20 Funny how a week of illness can backlog the rest of one's life & create even more stress than originally attempted at escaping. *Sigh* *Sad* #
06:22 On the plus side I have really pared down my clothes since almost nothing I own fits any more. Which means vintage, goth, etc clothes sale. #
06:23 Of course the down side is having to buy new clothes to fit this new steroid disabled body which has me 30 pounds over my desired weight. #
09:11 Let me know if you're awake & around. Had a really bad bout of insomnia last night so I just walked the dogs & now have manic energy. *Bad* #
09:16 @languid : Well today I'm in a manic phase; if you have some free time & don't mind playing sexy chauffeur please let me know. Target calls. #
09:26 Today the apt seems to be screaming at me to force myself to clean the heck out of it & (un)pack. It definitely needs to get sorted ASAP. #
09:59 Dogs walked an hour ago & now I just fed them. Had a bowl of "Cocoa Rice Crispies" w/soy milk. Need to start taking photos of more clothes. #

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Another item for sale (before the 20 pieces of clothes later on)

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 11:41:24 GMT

I just posted our beautiful special order ceiling fan we purchased from Lowe's to go in our master bedroom down in Austin and we brought it with us since we knew it wouldn't help sell the house and we hoped to find some place here where we could install it. Sadly not, so you can win from our loss.

Here's the link to the ad: http://sfbay.craigslist.org/eby/app/1350773052.html

Feel free to share it if you don't want to buy it yourself.

And as I wrote in the subject - I have over 20 pieces of clothing to take photos of and list. I'm slowly making my way through what looks like will be me having over 100 items of clothes and electronics to sell. Sad, but I'm coming to terms with my weight gain due to the steroids. Though I have to admit it does depress me quite a bit.

C'mon and add me...

Mon, 31 Aug 2009 03:29:38 GMT

http://www.goodreads.com/user/show/2263788

I think this should link to my http://www.goodreads.com profile where you can add me if you feel so inclined. I don't have a lot of friends on there but I just noticed that they've got a swap with friends option that made me think that perhaps more of my friends might want to join and even swap with me. Though I'll have to go through the books I have to swap to list vs the books I've compiled on my shelves to keep and horde with love so I can read them over and over and over again.

But let us see first if you are a member and can add me as a friend via that link.

*Grin*

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Sun, 30 Aug 2009 17:01:31 GMT

14:46 Sold the AC! Now to sell the washer/dryer, the ceiling fan, & lots & lots of clothes. And the 4Runner for Joey. Need funds to pay hospital. #
18:31 @slauriat : That's pretty freaking awesome! Glad to know you'll be getting that handled (just in time, too). Now the TV & Epson printer. :-) #
18:39 @fuzzytek : Thanks for the head's up. It's under an extended warranty, but I don't know if it's still under Epson's. I'll call 'em Monday! #
19:51 Unbelievingly wornout from insomnia, dog care, clothing sale prepping, selling AC, fighting w/printer, trying to live normally disabled. Ow. #
20:37 @melantha71 : Not really. I sold my "Stardust" collectible & my favorite rubber dress, my AC & my Palm, but I have a LOT of clothes to sell. #
23:45 Well, I learned a valuable lesson today. I can go out to eat OR I can go to an event BUT can't do both. My body collapsed so no concert. SOB #
23:47 I want to have health. I want to live a life like a normal person. I don't want to collapse due to nausea & survive on Popsicles. Feel sad. #

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Sat, 29 Aug 2009 17:01:18 GMT

12:23 tinyurl.com/lhahll <-- Ikea mattress recall due to possible flammablity issues. Yes, I get CPSC updates. #
00:11 Took all day for me to finally fall asleep. Helped Joey w/his truck listing & sorted out more clothes to sell. So worn out, must keep quiet. #
00:12 @slauriat : If this weather keeps up we may want to invest in a small fan for you to have at your desk to keep the air moving, like I have. #
00:14 @languid : Are you starting to shout out in your sleep "Who clip=clops by above?" along w/growing slowly into a troll? Or just heat stress? #
03:19 Well, I've finished my clothing post for tonight. Besides my corset post I now also have mollyblack.livejournal.com/302495.html set! #
03:20 Please feel free to not only RT for me (RT=ReTweet) but also to look over the prices and let me know if you think I'm asking fair amounts. #
03:41 Since I'm back online after some time relaxing away I have added the Last.fm attachment to Firefox so feel free to add me. Same name etc. #
05:16 Watching "Laura" yet again. My printer turns out to have a need for full ink replacement. Sadly. I might need to get it fixed as well, grrr. #
07:14 My Epson Stylus R1800 has gone basically tits up. As in broken. Two heads won't clean. Do I try to get it fixed? Is it worth it? #epsonfail #
11:56 I posted my printer for sale on Amazon. Makes me want to cry, but if it has nozzle issues it should go to somebody who can afford to fix it. #
11:59 I've also listed close to twenty items pieces of clothing for sale. Posted on #modelmayhem, #lj, here, & even craigslist. Need $ for realz. #

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Clothes for sale - Let me get this party started...

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 07:58:14 GMT

To see many more photos of each item just go here to see lots more As far as the prices are concerned I am flexible with some, but not with others. The Lip Service or latex for instance...there will be more added to this every other day so keep an eye out for them!

The prices do NOT include shipping. Shipping will be done based on weight and package size. FedEx Ground for anything over 5 pounds (aka for gowns) and USPS Priority Flat Rate Box for everything else. Paypal payment preferred - especially need verified addresses for shipping and insurance purposes. In order for you to look up shipping costs you can use my shipping zip code of 94611.

My corsets and corset gowns can be found in the corset community.

Lip Service Black with buckles mini-dress Size (S) $70-

Lip Service Red mini-dress Size (S) $50

Lip Service Purple with silver highlights mini-dress Size (M) $50

Sexy Raggedy Doll Costume Size (S) $50

Black & White Latex Outfit with matching arm and leg pieces and even matching latex underwear Size L/10-12 including pieces by Betty La Bamba $325

Purple latex skirt by Vex $65

Long Red Gown with black lacing up the back Size (M) $100

Black with white spots and elastic waist (sleeveless) vintage dress (missing top back snap) Size (M) $15

Catherine Coatney see through ballerina style black sheer in perfect condition skirt size (M) $85

Fairy skirt by Forplay never worn with tags $10

Vintage short skirt with black on black paisley and a white bottom fringe perfect for pinup Size S (elastic band a little twisted inside waist) $20

Older Calico dress, made & purchased in Montreal with 30% Hemp/70% Size (8) $75

Older Eternal dress, with a crushed velvet top $100

Gorgeous patterned crushed velvet short-short mini-dress by Stop Only or long shirt with opalescent snaps $65

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Fri, 28 Aug 2009 17:02:26 GMT

21:51 @languid : That would have been so much fun! What about tomorrow (Friday)? I really would like to see it & w/planning can make it through. #
04:28 @languid : Definitely going. @slauriat surprised me by buying our tickets ages ago so I'm spending as much time as I can resting before. :-) #
04:31 @languid : About D9, maybe we could go to a matinée on Sun/Mon instead? I definitely want to go; after all there's not a lot of cool sci-fi. #

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Thu, 27 Aug 2009 17:03:54 GMT

00:06 @bridgetvoid : Sadly that's so true that my high allergy to Candida is what sent me to the hospital the 2nd time. I'm on two antifungicides. #
05:56 @bridgetvoid : Besides the Nystatin 4x/day, I have to take Amitiza 2x/day - until today when it looks like the Dr dropped it to 1x/day. Ugh. #
06:19 Watching comedy after comedy to try & get through this pain & overwhelming depression. Instead I have stress & the rest of it drowning me. #

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Wed, 26 Aug 2009 17:03:06 GMT

22:27 If all goes well tomorrow I ship off the "Stardust" dress. Saw therapist today. See pain specialist on Thursday. I'm drowning in sadness. #
00:23 I have over 50 outfits to sell & I feel overwhelmed by my huge stack of gorgeous clothes & costumes that I've collected for over 20 years. #
00:29 I don't want to sell my clothes as some were custom made for me, some were found in vintage stores, & selling them a loss I can't explain. #
00:31 Love me? Live near me? Wear a size 8-10 or wear a 22" corset? Please offer to model my clothes for me to post them. TFP or maybe a costume. #
04:46 Going away for a while. No more Internet. No more love. No more anything. Other than selling clothes I will stay away from the world. Sick. #

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Tue, 25 Aug 2009 17:02:34 GMT

17:38 Looking at an image from Roger Ebert's "The Great Movies II" I had this phrase strike me: "I was Annie Hall & Kurt was Woody Allen." Truth. #
17:41 In more & more pain each day & having problems not only coping w/the pain & nausea, but also eating, drinking any liquids, & surviving it. #
17:48 I run out of my steroids tomorrow. Having these nasty pills be one of several keeping me alive yet gone strikes in me a fear I can't escape. #
17:51 I run out of my opioid patches in three days, my medicinal food tonight, my steroids tomorrow. With my pain & nausea I just want comforting. #
17:53 If Twitter acts as a social networking shorthand/footnote creator for our lives, it works well. Everything about my life NOW clearly stated. #
17:57 Of course it means leaving out history at times. My love affairs, the raves thrown, the adventures had, the people met, & my real happiness. #
21:30 bit.ly/99MoR - I'm selling off my clothes & have finally started with the first post in the corset community on LJ. Please help? RT? #
21:32 @languid : I'm glad you enjoyed my "side boob" show.. *Grin* Are you a nudist too? Both @slauriat & myself are when we have a good place. #
21:34 @modelnicotine : Ask me & @slauriat for assistance since we can both help you find a good inexpensive one to replace the one you have. HUG #
21:37 RT @NeweggHotDeals: Hot Deal! We are still offering $20 off any order of $200 or more when using PayPal. Hurry, funds are almost depleted! #
22:59 Sadly it looks as though my Lamia dress has sold. Now to sell everything else so my hospital bills can be paid & not go to collections. Sigh #
23:45 I haven't even started photographing or listing most of my Lip Service & I already have requests for them. *Meep* This sucks. Good & bad. #
00:17 @bridgetvoid : Trust me, I know! That's why Shawn drove to the city my Endocrinologist has his office in to pick up the prescription ASAP! #
00:17 @bridgetvoid : I was terribly afraid after what happened last time. I'm basically living fairly similarly as to how I did in the hospital. #
00:19 Friends in the Bay Area - if you want to help me out & can I could use help getting photos together of my clothes I'm selling. Model for me? #
00:24 Another way friends in the Bay Area can help me if possible, w/careful scheduling taking me to doctor appointments would help a LOT. *Grin* #
00:28 @bridgetvoid : Trust me, this I know. It tossed me in the hospital after the second relapse; the first one being last August when it hit. #
02:45 Having problems using FTP to get my huge amount of photos of clothes I'm selling to work with the two sites I need it to work with. Argh! #
05:23 In pain. Lots of exhaustion. But I have posted my for sure for sale corsets, corset gowns, and waist cinchers. Tomorrow I'll start the rest. #
05:27 To everybody who said they wished they could help me if I only lived closer: Please RT/re-post my sale link &/or find something you want? XO #
05:30 Also, if you live in Austin & either need a place to live or know somebody who does, we have a huge house that needs love, care & watering. #

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Such Sadness & Such Loneliness

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 14:10:25 GMT

Well somebody paid for the Stardust dress. Good for me financially, but terribly sad for me personally. I so wanted a copy of it in my size.

And that makes me think of a certain person from TX & all the promises he made then broke. Even now the things I trusted him with I will most likely never see again. It makes me even more sad. I did so much for him before the tragedy & even more after it and all I ever got in return were words and empty promises.

Nobody but myself to blame. How many times have I done the same thing? Trusting blindly in the belief that when I do good things for other people that they'll do good things in return. Like keeping promises. I wonder if I'll ever see my clothes or fabric or any of it ever again. I believed in him. In our friendship. It hurts. A lot.

I don't know what hurts more...the lies about his love for me or the feeling in my chest that I never learn. The way he kept me believing he would get here as fast as he could as days turned into weeks turned into months until six months after his original promised visit I faced the fact that he never would come to help me.

Finding it difficult not to beat up even more on myself about all of it. See, I loved him. Not sexually, but with the purity of everything I thought he deserved. I trusted him. I counted on him. I thought our lives would intertwine and I would give him the business help I thrive in sharing with the truly talented and he would give me the support I so desperately need to try and keep going through this hell I'm in.

Joey & Jason have given me much more than I deserved or dreamed they would. And even my husband, with all his asininity has given me more to trust in. I still love him. I still am in love with him, even. But he's driving me nuts with his behavior. Just once I would like to have him sit next to me and put his arms around me. Not to just comfort me, mind you, but because he needs to feel that anchor that keeps us solid through all the bad as well as the good.

I just don't know anymore who to trust and who to lock out of my life's inner core. That's part of why I left the main social networking sites outside of Twitter and LJ. I feel isolated by my constant pain and nausea. I feel saddened by my recognition that modeling is no longer something I can do, even playfully. So each piece of clothing I sell helps pay my medical debts and helps buy food...and takes me further away from my creative outlets.

At 7 am I'm finally starting to fade. ~~So I'll make this private for now.~~

After sleeping a bit and re-reading it I just took out two names and kept the rest as I originally wrote it. It hides no truth and tells no lies.

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The selling of it all has begun!

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 04:39:31 GMT

I'm selling almost everything I have that is a corset, a corset gown, or club wear since I'm 40, disabled, and unlikely to fit into any of these clothes any more due to my steroid weight gain. So my loss is other people's gain - plus it will help buy me food and make sure my hospital bills don't go to a collection agency. Rather than requesting donations (though of course with my disability, the fight with the government over a four month gap of time, and my inability to work while costing my family a LOT of money due to hospital and medical expenses I could use charity without ever seeing a penny of it - all of it straight to debts)...

Anyway.

http://community.livejournal.com/corsetry/1843047.html

That's the start. I'll really get going and re-post it here and keep adding and subtracting as items go. Any help is a LOT of help. Whether you link to this or post about it somewhere or even find something that looks like you or somebody you know would look fantastic in any of the clothes? All of it will help me dig my way slowly out of my financial debts due to the nine days in the hospital and all the expensive medications they have me on now. Insurance is only helping so much ... the rest I have to sort out to help in any way I can.

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Mon, 24 Aug 2009 17:03:13 GMT

19:55 RT @neilhimself: It occurs to me that when you do it right twittering can be footnotes for life. [Funny how I already thought of it as so.] #
19:57 @languid : Oh yeah? I dare you to come over & look at me nakie & still say that! Though if it's true I will feel incredibly thankful. Truly. #
20:03 Considering the music my brain usually wakes me up w/& the crushing pain I think you definitely win this round Mr @slauriat. Thank you, btw! #
20:05 @melantha71 : I can't recommend the "Futurama" movies enough! They're fairly great, as is the commentary - same goes for "The Incredibles." #
20:07 About the only thing keeping me from crying from the pain is a hot bath to ease the crushing pain in my ribcage. Now to soak & ease it down. #

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Sat, 22 Aug 2009 17:00:47 GMT

21:25 RT @petapixel: First look - Fotomoto takes the pain out of selling prints: bit.ly/9RzAR [Anybody I know using this service w/advice?] #
21:44 @languid : I would love a Sugar Daddy right now. Somebody who wanted only arm candy in exchange for regular candy. The rock or gold sort. #
21:46 @languid : Of course I would need to somehow get back down to what I consider better "Arm Candy" weight first. I try for @slauriat, truly! #
22:01 For the few unaware: This past year turned out to want to take me right out of existence. Help me buy food by buying my modeling clothes? #
22:14 Want to live at a discounted rent in a newer large house 20 minutes from downtown Austin? Substantial discount in exchange for renovating. #
22:17 I know, I know - repeating one's self does not help one's needs or causes. But so many friends wrote if they could help me they would... #

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Thu, 20 Aug 2009 17:05:26 GMT

20:46 twitpic.com/ejh9a - Devoted Doggies! Zweite Ein & Femme Pois #
00:00 @languid : Technically am I a cougar? I mean ten years w/somebody 13 years younger than me doesn't fit, but the fact I date younger than me? #
01:47 twitpic.com/ekcxd - Nail That May Fall Off (NOT nail polish) #
01:50 twitpic.com/ekd48 - Split Toenail & Cut Toe (Losing Toenail) #
01:52 Taking pictures of my various damaged body parts as I'm now having to hide away from bullshit in my bedroom in my own f*cking apt. Furious! #
02:24 @modelnicotine : Yay for happy things! #
02:35 Speaking of happy things I just sold my first piece of gorgeous latex & look forward to selling all of it & paying my debts & buying food! #
02:43 @languid : Give me a few months to get back in the game. You have to admit 30-17 is fairly Cougar, even if it led to ten years. Sugar Daddy? #

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Wed, 19 Aug 2009 17:02:36 GMT

23:07 Pain & nausea have me bed-bound today. I haven't been able to eat & news about a friend has added to my stress. Erica's trying to feed me. #
23:14 Haven't gone on the computer or online today. But Netflix sent "The Incredibles" today so Erica has me distracted by its awesome brilliance. #

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Tue, 18 Aug 2009 17:08:08 GMT

13:10 My toe definitely got damaged enough to keep me in bed yet another day. I feel stupid (& in pain) for continuing to use those shoes. *Sigh* #
13:13 Need to do a food shopping trip & go to Target to find a cheap pair of slipons for times I can walk the dogs or even just myself. @slauriat? #
13:15 On the plus side, slowly (very) we're getting the apartment cleared up so it looks a little neater & ready for guests & local friend visits. #
13:18 RT @petapixel: Check out this E.T. frog! bit.ly/U5y1E [Definitely worth checking out, esp. if you love frogs as much as I do!] #
17:02 I have a large amount of clothes I'm listing for sale including rubber/pvc/corsets/corset gowns/collectibles/vintage/tripp/wigs/etc. on LJ. #
17:03 Since I no longer consider myself a model almost all of my costumes, gowns, etc are for sale. If you've seen one & want it make me an offer! #
17:10 @modelnicotine twitpic.com/ea8nn - Neat! How did that come about? #
17:13 bit.ly/eG8k4 : Photos going up slowly of items for sale. So many clothes to photograph & list today & tomorrow. Please buy what fits? #
17:30 @languid : 2nd Stop - Richmond & Croxton. #
21:10 Finally started working on getting the images together. Here's my 22" Vollers corset: bit.ly/1aWjpw & more here: bit.ly/2iGOd4 #
21:13 @modelnicotine : That's pretty damned awesome. It looks great and I am really proud of your modeling capability. You're truly a pro now. #
21:58 RT @slauriat: Relaxing w/[...]Billie Holiday. Nothing scheduled for tonight, and that feels like just about as much as I can stand. [Agreed] #
22:00 Received bad news from an old friend. Tonight has nothing in store other than resting, recovering, & a hot bath. Love to those who need it. #
22:04 RT @Blackestsheep : "i do not think that people should have to file bankruptcy because they get cancer b/c #iamagrownup " [Disabled period!] #
22:50 @languid : I definitely want to go see his next performance with you (and if he's not in Austin, @slauriat) since I think we'll have fun. #
22:52 RT @GreatDismal: RT @AnnCurry: Here's the link to NYT story that DNA evidence can be fabricated. tinyurl.com/pc276f [Fascinating!] #

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Sale Post: 22" Corsets, Corset Gowns, Rubber/PVC, Costumes, Tripp, Etc.

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 20:52:30 GMT

I just started going through my clothes to sell and I have over two dozen pieces of clothing already picked out that I will never fit in again and just have to let go of - no matter how sad it makes me.

Starting with a Vollers corset - 22" and only worn for two photo shoots - never out to any clubs. I have a Tripp lace and pvc gown that starts under the breasts and is for use with a sexy bra/top that is a size Medium. I have a couple costumes that have not lost in value and have never been worn except to try them on - they even come in their original packaging. The first is my Racy Rag Doll.

This is going to take me a long time to get organized. View photos as they go up here. I'll try to make sure to put the prices on them as they go up as well.

I will have more photos to put up by later this evening of different outfits.

Any item I sell is going toward my debts immediately since I have so many so the more I sell and the sooner I sell them, the better! Please feel free to write me about something you've seen me wear in the past. I'm even going to sell some of my wigs that I've purchased from blueella so anybody who reads this and wants one of her wigs that you've seen me wear, please feel free to not only ask, but also to make a good offer.

Forcing Myself to Face the Truth

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 18:46:24 GMT

I love Shawn so very much & yet the only way to save our marriage seems to be by my letting go not only physically but also emotionally for a longer time than I feel capable of.

The loss of him near me, even with our separation fills me with conflicting feelings: I feel proud of everything we've accomplished together & want to see us together more - creating together not only music, but a stable & happy home. I also know how much we've both changed. Maybe I should welcome this forced division between us - somebody out there must love slightly overweight older women who used to have a vivid & exciting life until ill health trapped them to a time mostly having to be spent in bed.

I know that Shawn could be a man like that. Erica laughing told me some men LIKE cellulite, but I have reservations as to the truthfulness of that. He fell in love with a dynamic, exciting, full of energy woman. I know just how intensely I've changed as I've become more & more ill.

And we both deserve love. We both deserve unreserved love. I know he has it from me. And he tells me that I have it from him. So a long-term separation has me staring up as if at a huge brick wall. I know it will help financially, but I still feel as though we should be doing this together. My staying here's a necessity for not only my health - though that's the main reason.

Anyway, enough venting about how sad this separation will make me. Next I have to figure out whether or not to fight the system that literally screwed me out of my disability rights (TX lawyer agreed I'm sick & disabled & can't work - she just claims it started after my SS rights ran out by four months). It feels like a futile fight, sadly.

And on a positive note, I have had two local friends offer to help me get to appointments & food shopping; plus I have Erica staying here to care for me & the dogs most of the week. When (if?) @slauriat goes back to our house in TX I just need to find a friend to sleep over & care for me when she can't due to other things like the Vortex Room needs her.

So today I'm resting, tomorrow I see my therapist & hit the dispensary for much needed foods & maybe even a rush visit to Target to fix a few issues. Which reminds me: I need to call them today. Sigh. Etc. *Grin*

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