I feel relaxed and as though I can look forward to things (at least for the next 30 days). It is an amazing feeling and I just wanted to share it while it is happening.
There is still a lot to deal with. But right now I may have a future that is not just binary and that is an amazing, shining rare thing to feel. So I want to share it. Yes I am scared that I have to take an opioid to relieve the pain. But at this moment it feels so worth it.
Thank you to everybody who has been here while I work through the bad stuff. The gifts, cards, text messages, and emails help pull me through some dark moments. Now to get stuff working in my life again.