So Raul finally found a job. It's in Berkeley and it pays above minimum wage, but less than IHSS by a few pennies, and he starts today. Hopefully it will develop into a proper situation, for at least a bit.
This means many things for both of us; I'm tempted to see this as a push in a better direction.
There's been no feedback on my YouTube videos, no sharing of my donation request page, not even direct requests merit any responses from people I've known for so many years, they're heading into decades of contact.
So with people threatening me verbally, and this feeling of bizarre disconnect from almost every single person I know, giving up and fleeing might work best for me.
It definitely feels as though the effort I put into my scripts and recording my stupid humiliating videos is for naught and it sucks.